Monday, February 4

I may not have been born in Texas..

Goodness, it's been quite difficult to do anything lately.

The last time I tried to cook, I made it as far as the kitchen sink before I started gagging and had to tearfully walk away.  I cried because my husband was hungry and I wanted to make him dinner, but I couldn't even do that.  That's hard for me, providing nourishment for Brent is one of the ways I show him my love.  I wonder if that's in the "What's your love language" book?  I've never read it.  Good thing Brent understands me and he is the one that made me walk away.  I wear these acupuncture nausea bands called "Sea-Bands" all day, every day.  Someone asked if I was trying to make a fashion statement.  No, I am not making a fashion statement.  I am encouraged to know, however, that it will get better after I reach the 12 weeks mark.  That's only 2 weeks away, I can see the light, thank God!  I know that this is some well-needed rest.  I'll be thankful for it later on, I'm sure of it.

Brent and I made another life-changing decision recently.  I've realized that we've been pretty busy making life-changing decisions.  Moving to a new country, baby-making, moving back to a country.  Livin' ain't easy, but it sure is fun!

We're moving to Texas, Yeehaw!  My heart has always been in Texas.  When I was applying for college, all I wanted to do was go to a college in Texas.  When I was applying for jobs, all I wanted to do was work in Texas.  Something always told me that the timing just wasn't right yet.  Especially when I got offered a job in Austin, and turned it down!  Probably one of the hardest decisions that I have ever had to make.  When the timing became right after all, I married a Texan (Praise the Lord, he's the greatest gift that I have ever received) and now we're moving there!  My favorite saying right now: "I may not have been born in Texas, but I got here as soon as I could."  I want that T-Shirt.  Brent and I are avid believers in following your heart, because it's telling to go in the direction that you were meant to go.  We followed our hearts when we came to New Zealand, and now we're doing the same thing in moving to Texas.   The first week back in America, we are going to the Houston Rodeo, seeing George Strait in concert at the Rodeo, and then another concert to see Eric Clapton and The Wallflowers.  If that's not the perfect "Welcome back to America" week, then I don't know what else would be.

It's been fun naming our baby.  We have officially decided on a girl and boy name.  It's really not as easy as you might think.  I mean, before we ever got pregnant, we had like 4 of our future children named.  When it actually happens though, it's kind of a whole different story.  We do know for sure that there's only one jelly bean in there.  I love our names so much and would love to share them but I don't want anyone to steal them because I'm a baby name hog.  How's that for honest, haha?!  It's kind of silly really.  I'm pretty sure we have decided that we want to know the gender of the baby because we want to call him/her by name before birth.  So once we find out the gender, the name will be out there.

I'm really into my energy right now, and being aware of how that is affecting the baby.  Although, I can't say that I'm doing a superb job of keeping it under control.  As I was reading about pregnancy stuff today, I came across the fact that the surge of hormones is really high right now, and it is responsible for the mood swings.  I turned to Brent and asked, "Honey, do you think I'm having mood swings?  Because I can't tell.."  He looked at me and laughed!  I couldn't help but laugh too.  I mean, who am I kidding?  I cry at everything pretty much.  The weird thing is that some things that I'm supposed to cry about, I actually don't shed a tear.  So either I'm emotion-less, or emotional.  So strange.

It will be so much fun being with family and having a baby.  They already love him/her just as much as we do.  Especially since my family is a little bit, well, "far" at this moment.  This story deserves a post of its own, which will be coming soon.  Brent and I are both in the process of getting our licenses to practice in Texas.  Then, we'd be all set to work, pay off some student loans, hang out with our family, have a baby, grill steaks, heck, maybe even open up our clinic sooner than we thought, and just continue living life to the absolute fullest.

2 Timothy 1:7 "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."

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